:) Smiley Reverse :( Plus Titik Hujan Equals :'(

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

Heya.

Bulatan gumbira.

"Ada apa-apa soalan lagi tak?"

Satu persatu wajah-wajah sekeliling direnung. Innocent. Adik-adik yang belum terdedah pada dunia luar. Yang belum disedarkan tenatnya realiti umat.

Satu tangan terangkat. Rendah je.

"Ye?"

"Akak-akak ni semua study oversea ke?"

"A'ah. UK-Ireland."

"Kat Malaysia takde eh benda-benda ni?"

"Eh, ada je alhamdulillah."

Dalam hati, 'adik ni macam berminat je'. Smiley sampai langit. Pengisian tujuan hidup, alat vs matlamat, tadabbur Al-Quran tak sia-sia nampaknya.

"Habis tu kenapa sebelum ni tak pernah ada orang datang buat program macam ni kat sekolah kitorang?"

Deg. Jantung dah buat somersault kejap. Smiley yang tadi tinggi ke langit, reverse jatuh ke kerak bumi bersama titik-titik hujan.

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Ini baru dapat claim di dunia. Bagaimana di akhirat nanti, bila masing-masing saling menuding mahu selamatkan diri sendiri.

"Tiqa, kenapa awak tak tegur saya kat dunia dulu?"

"QaAm, kenapa kau tak bagitahu aku benda ni dulu?"

"Moi, gua lepak dengan lu kut dulu. Kejadah lu simpan mende ni sorang-sorang?"

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Mereka mencari, sebenarnya. We just have to meet them halfway.

"Dan (ingatlah) ketika suatu umat di antara mereka berkata, "Mengapa kamu menasihati kaum yang akan dibinasakan atau diazab Allah dengan azab yang sangat keras?" Mereka menjawab, "Agar kami mempunyai alasan (lepas tanggung jawab) kepada Tuhanmu, dan agar mereka bertakwa"." 7: 164

Mula kaki melangkah dengan niat ingin menyentuh hati adik-adik. Pulang ke kem dengan hati yang disentuh adik-adik.

Catatan 'serang sekolah', RoAR 2014.

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Nota kaki: Usrah-mates, apa khabar semua? Rinduuuuu :3

Nota mintak kaki: Baru 2 hari balik dari RoAR, dah terasa lain macam.

End of hopefully-not-a-mere-blah-dee-blahs. Peace be upon you.

Of Growing Up.

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

Heya.

"Korang kena tukar usrah tau." When Kak Syikkin dropped that, I was rendered speechless.

"Kenapa?"

"Ye lah korang kan dah nak membesar lepas ni."

Growing up. Oh yeah that rings a bell.

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I remember the first time I watched Peter Pan movie back when I was in primary school. I can totally relate to him straight away because I, too, was terrified at the idea of growing up.

You can't really blame me if my 11-year-old self saw adults as screwups. They fight, they lash out at each other, they bribe, they spread lies, they let their emotions get the best of them, just to name a few. Seeing how messed up the world is at the hands of adults, with wars waged here and there, corrupted authorities, crony capitalism -- you name it -- I didn't really have much option but to create my Neverland, did I?

Despite enjoying the yearly birthday presents and parties, I dreaded each year that passed me by. Years come and go and without me realizing it I am turning 21 this December. I was so vexed over growing up that had people asked how old I was, I would reduce the number by one. Well, talk about being born at the end of the year. Heh.

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And then Kak Syikkin mentioned about growing up this morning. Despite being a little taken aback, I no longer feel that tinge of terror at the words 'growing up'. Because I know now I have a new perspective of growing up, under the shade of dakwah and tarbiyah.

Growing up is not about number. Ageing is. Ageing and growing up don't necessarily go on the same page. A 37-year-old junkie might think it's okay to rob his neighbour to get his supply, while a 7-year-old wouldn't even take a buck at the expense of covering up his teenage brother's mischief from their parents. Age is but a number. Wisdom is what makes one people different from another.

And on this DnT path, growing up is knowing your purpose of life, and actually practicing it. Growing up is acknowledging your relationship with your God, and cherishing it. Growing up is to actually contribute something to your deen, rather than taking everything it has to offer and giving nothing back. Growing up is to spread your deen to people around you, to share with them the same kind of tranquility and happiness you feel to be blessed with it. At least that's what I understand about growing up in this deen. As of now.

It was narrated from Abu Hurairah that:

The Messenger of Allah [SAW] said: "There are seven whom Allah, the Mighty and Sublime, will shade with His shade on the Day of Resurrection, the Day when there will be no shade but His: A just ruler, a young man who GROWS UP worshiping Allah, the Mighty and Sublime; a man who remembers Allah when he is alone and his eyes flow (with tears); a man whose heart is attached to the Masjid; two men who love each other for the sake of Allah, the Mighty and Sublime; a man who is called (to commit sin) by a woman of high status and beauty, but he says: 'I fear Allah'; and a man who gives charity and conceals it, so that his left hand does not know what his right hand is doing."

Worshiping Allah, in its very own essence. Being His true 'abid and caliph is what I believe growing up is. I still have a long way to go, and I'm taking it one step at a time. Usrah-mates, let's, together!

Oh while we're at it, all the best for my usrah-mates for our JC2 exam next week. Let's strive our best to study with ihsan :)

End of hopefully-not-a-mere-blah-dee-blahs. Peace be upon you.

Our Farmville.

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

Heya.

Oops, assalamualaikum!

On a gath last December, I stumbled upon an intriguing hadith. Roughly translated, it says:

The Messenger of Allah (pbuh) said: "If you have one date seed in your hand and you know that tomorrow is the Day of Resurrection, you have to plant the seed and let not the Day of Resurrection pass without you planting the seed." Related by Imam Ahmad.

Err. Mindblowing, yeah?

Isn't it strange? Rasulullah (pbuh) telling us to plant a seed even if tomorrow the ground will be shaken and every single living creature will be destroyed, let alone a tiny seed! I mean, what's the point, right?

Mommy, my bwain can't work wight now so can I have some Oweo maybe?

If today was your last day on Earth, what would you do? If it was me, I would surely pray non-stop, for I know that my sins are too much. And maybe read the whole Quran with the translation, because it would be such a waste to leave this world without any idea about its 'manual'. Yes, Quran is the manual of life, not some philosophical or motivational books written by somebody somewhere in the la la land. And clearly, the last thing that will come into my mind is planting a seed that requires several years to grow into a plant when I know that there's no tomorrow.

So why planting a seed? Aren't we better off repenting for our sins, or pay off our debts, or apologize to persons we've wronged in the past, or maybe confess to that particular brother or sister we have a crush on for all we know! Haha.

So where was I? Right, the hadith.

Indeed, that's the beauty of Islam. It teaches us about the true meaning of effort,of giving our all into whatever we're trying to do without fretting too much over the end result. It teaches us about ihsan, worshiping Allah as though you can see Him. Even if you can't, you undoubtedly believe that He's constantly watching over you. Because in the end, this world is not where we harvest. This world is only where we sow, while the hereafter is where we reap what we sowed.

Often we are stopped from working out our plan, not because of others, but our own self. We worry too much about what's waiting for us at the other end of the road, or if we're gonna make it to the end of the road we're walking on, that in the end we realize that we haven't even taken our first step. We think too much, if it's going to be worth our effort, when in fact what Allah counts is the effort, not the result. What Allah will judge on us is solely our deeds, not our worldly achievements. What Allah will question us is whether we plant the seed, not how big or tall our plant has grown. In the context of da'wah, whether we have fully utilized our tools on the way of this deen. Because as one sister of mine once said, and I quote, "With every ni'mah comes great responsibility."

And hasten to forgiveness from your Lord and a garden as wide as the heavens and earth, prepared for the righteous (3:133)

Has the time not come for those who have believed that their hearts should become humbly submissive at the remembrance of Allah and what has come down of the truth? And let them not be like those who were given the Scripture before, and a long period passed over them, so their hearts hardened; and many of them are defiantly disobedient. (57:16)

So let's plant our 'seed'. Chances are we would never find another time to do it. Chances are we might die before we make our first step. Chances are tomorrow could be one day too late. So don't delay good deeds.

*tie shoelace*

End of hopefully-not-a-mere-blah-dee-blahs. Peace be upon you.